Well as I start this blog with tears in my eyes...I am wondering where I went wrong! How did I let this man into my life to get the best of me AGAIN!
Since this is my first post I guess I should tell the story of why I am 'The Seriel Bachelorette'. Well in the past 4 years I have had 4 boyfriends. The longest being 1.5 years and the shortest and the latest being exactly 2 weeks to the damn hour almost. I honestly believe that my biggest problem is fantasizing! I want the beautiful life filled with love, children and those two most precious words...DUAL INCOME! I know how I want my wedding to be...I even know the names of my children...I can envision Saturday mornings waking up to a sun filled room with fluffy down linen hearing the pitter patter of my kids feet running down the hall and jumping up on the bed with mommy and daddy. Yes, the good life.
The only problem is the man in that fantasy keeps changing. My most recent beau was going to be the leading man in my Good Life...so I thought! He was as excited as I was, eager to let my imagination run wild and even fantasize with me! But it was all a joke...because at the end of the day...that is all it was...A FANTASY! It was fun and easy for him to talk about the future and all the things he wanted but not to actually do any real work on getting there. He wasted my time! (3 month of heavy traveling, gas money, and gifts) But I let him...because I wasn't looking for the signs...I was only listening to him talk...so I didn't see it coming! I was too busy fantasizing...I let him have the lead role before I let him finish the audition! 2 weeks of being official...now I can add him to my growing list of exes! While I was busy fantasizing...life was passing me by...
It is time to live! What are you showing me right NOW! Damn a fantasy!
